Building up.

All these anger is building inside. I just wish you know how much you annoy people. Sometimes, I want to tell you to stand up on your feet and DO IT YOURSELF.

But you know, IT IS POINTLESS. YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH PEOPLE YOU ANNOYED! Like everyone in class is kinda of mad at you. You are the definition of selfish. You are a good friend but this  is happening again. It isn't good for you and us.

Another person I dislike is my lecturer. I hate him, I HATE HIM. I don't understand why must he be so biased? I don't like you. I hate you but you are still my lecturer and there are things I don't know and I NEED TO ASK YOU. So please answer back PROPERLY. Don't just uh uh yea yea. Oh god. GO DOTE YOUR OTHER STUDENTS WHO RESPECT YOU. I DON'T. 

YOU LOOKED DOWN ON ME. 

Weirdness

Everything seemed weird, like so unreal. I don't really know why. My life has always been complicated but with my boyfriend around, my life seemed to just, for that moment, toned down its complication.

Long Road.

No one said it was easy to begin with. I really trying my best. 

Fantasy Land.


A land filled with pretty flowers, rainbow and waterfall.
Just that, it can take away my pain. 
Am I suffering? 
I can't tell you.
Am I happy?
I can't tell you.
Cause
even I, myself, don't know.
The mixture of uncertainty. You can't understand it. You just bear with it.
Hoping it will vanish like thin air but it doesn't.
It still stays. 
The difference is, 
it is hidden away.
The only thing you can do is just bear with it but you yearn to tell someone.
but no one can understand.
You don't want someone to answer those worries, you just want that person
to listen.