We broke off. I was a bitch. I was stupid, I wasn't even thinking clearly. One mistake link to this big regret.

This blog is dead. Real dead. All well, there is no readers anyways and I shall just blabber my way through.

It is 2.53 am. My body clock is screwed by all these design works. Damn. It stinks. This holiday, I am going to work hard, draw hard and party hard! I have to lose all the weight I need to lose. No more stupid excuses. Well, I managed to lose quite alot of weight and I am proud of it BUT I have to lose more. I want to hit the 60 & below target. I know I know, it is not about the scale but somehow, it does play an important role. I may be 63 kg but I feel much more heavier. I want to be toned up and ready to kick-ass in hot dresses. Yes, I want to be look good, feel good and be proud of who I am.

Sometimes, it just stinks when people shoot you and said that you are never good enough. Bloody hell. It is a way of motivation for me. I hate it when people say I am never good in this or that. I will prove them wrong. This holiday will be a change. I am going to groom myself with skills of sewing. I need that BAD. Life is always about learning, it is never too late. I am never good at some thing, I am just an ordinary girl who is trying to do something with her life. My life is hell boring. Though I have an awesome boyfriend by my side, my life is just plain boring and I doubt it will be anymore exciting. However, I am happy with what I have. I am glad that I have my family, my boyfriend and my awesome mates.

Guess what? I have been praying a lot lately. I guess my dad's book for my 17th birthday works well. Think positive. Well, at least I am trying to make a change to myself.