Maybe it is not the same as it was before. People change in relationship. I won't say it is a bad thing. Everyone is changing. Nothing stays the same for long. It is life. We are always adapting to new things. We can never stop growing and learning. I am trying to adapt to new things and learn to accept them.

I guess when people ask you to let go certain stuff, you try but you can't. Because you feel that you can do it. You can make it work. Determination, I guess? Am I strong enough? I feel vulerable and weak. I am. I tell myself I am strong and show people I am strong but deep inside, I know I am weak. When will I be strong? Can I be my own hero?

For the past few nights, I have been lighting my candle to sleep. It gives me hope. It told me it will be better tomorrow. I hold on to it. Hold on to Hope.

I love him. Every minute, every second. He makes me go so crazy. He can just make me be so mad at him for treating me like an ass sometimes. But yet, he can make me fall in love with him over and over again.

I never forget the way he treats me or hold me when he is with me. I wish he can follow me 24/7 because he is a different man. I can see from his eyes. I maybe wrong but my heart tells me whatever I am feeling is true. He protects me. Even though he can so rude and pissed at things we just quarrel about, I know he loves me, deep down.

I just wish I have concrete evidence. His phone has pictures of me and us. I believe him through these actions.

I believe he love me. He loves me deeply.