Ever since he wasn't part of my life, I was feeling fine. Then something unexpected and bad happened which I do not wish to speak about. It caused me to want to end my life. Every night, I kept thinking about it. I cried almost every night because that is the only way I relieved what I am feeling inside.

I don't want to tell my friends because I know what they will say. They are good friends but sometimes, it is just hard for me to open my mouth and tell them how I really feel. Everything came falling apart ever since my love left my life and that big incident. It is really the time that I felt alone. That I have no one to speak to or tell my true feelings too.

I try to be strong. I have to be. I am the eldest and I just want to be a good daughter and a good friend. But people judge me for who I am on the outside. I made mistake but I will never have any bad intention to harm/hurt someone.

I wish that incident can make me stronger but right now, I am falling weak.