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Just so you know

2012-01-31T23:24:00.004+08:00

Please.

To whoever is reading this.
There is something I want people to know.
I love him, I love Zhi Cay.

I knew him for 21 days. I never thought I would fall in love with him. A random add on facebook, soon became badminton friends training together. Not long, we became good friends talking away about our daily crazy life and our past. Head for our first date. One word : splendid. It feels like I know him well but yet, I am craving for more about him. To you, you might think I am crazy and dumb. Fall in love so quick?

I know, I thought so too but I couldn't control. As for a quote goes, " Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind; And therefore is winged Cupid painted blind. " Love is blind at the end of day. I fell in love. I know nothing about love. Nothing. Though I been through tons of relationship. Let say I was quite a flirt back then as I dated many guys. After all those experiences, I know nothing about love. Nothing. No one really knows what is the true definition of love.

Love is different to every single person. Everyone experiences different types of love. I always joke around with my boy, kid with him, laugh with him, beat him and quarrel with him. But at the end of the day, we still love each other no matter what. He is just that guy whom I can just joke around with, talk to when I am down, be there when I needed him, smack him when I just feel like. I am violent I admit but he doesn't hate me or get mad.

I never intend to let the whole world know about us but there is this urge in me that wants to tell everyone : Hey, I love that boy. He is an asshole but I still love him. No one loves me the way I am. He sees me differently. A way that no one could see.

It is when you got this feeling that you had someone by your side and you know you will never let him/her go cause he/she is the reason you smile. I just hope my parents will accept him. I really do want my parents to trust me in this. I ain't gonna do stupid stuff. If I want to, I will already did it a long time ago, won't I?

I want my parents to understand that I love him and that is the fact. Trust seems harder to achieve right now. Mum & Dad, I doubt you will be reading this but I love you. I really love you, Mum & Dad. I just hope that you can let me love someone else too. I always try to please you guys by doing well in my studies. I may be moody at times but obstacles are getting harder. I just hope you guys will trust me & love me more.

I never want to disappoint anyone. I don't want be an embarrassment to my parents. But sometimes, when I care about other people's feelings, I neglected mine. Can my parents start to care about my feelings? Sometimes, I want them to love me more. Sometimes, I want to step down being the big sis and be loved by someone. That someone came. I never felt that happy before. Usually, I am always the one loving someone. Having someone to love you back and care about you isn't a bad thing afterall.

Maybe I am not that mature in my parents' eyes? I am just an immature young kid. Well, I will prove to you, Mum & Dad.

I wonder where has the love gone? Those sweet romance? It seem to vanish into thin air. Oh what happened to sweet old love stories and love songs? Does love stop making sense anymore in this world. I don't know about you. But I know love exist, no just sex. I been loved by my friends and family. Now I just need to add one extra member, Zhi Cay.

Is it too much to ask?

Forever always, I love you, Mum and Dad

Lately.

2012-01-30T22:36:00.004+08:00

Say hi to love (: His name is Zhi Gay. Forever gay (: My best friend and My love. He wasted a lot of my time but it was well spent! Time to do my work now. Miss that boy though I always bully him. I guess it is just in my blood. Bullying people!

It has been awhile since I meet my punching bag! Time to chit chat with that punching bag! Ever since I with my boy, he has been feeding me. Oh god. Time to swim often!

Hong Baos

2012-01-24T20:20:00.001+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

Hong Baos coming my way (: Hopefully the money can last me ): Been great this holiday but sucky when I think of my project : Ink and Lead. It is literally killing me. Totally killing me. Omg. Like a huge time bomb planted in my brain, waiting to explode at the right time.

Need to buck up. Submission is less than a month! Oh god. I am dead. So dead. Damn. Why is it so hard? I shouldn't rack my brain, just let it come to me, just let the inspiration flow in my blood and brain!

If only that was faster.

Falling.

2012-01-20T11:23:00.002+08:00

Me. You. Here.

Honestly, School had been killing me. I am so stress that my face is popping out pimples. Oh no. The life of a designer. Cny is coming soon and I am not even eggcited about it. I guess it is all too fast. Like a sudden rush of adrenaline. But I am totally look forward for the hong baos (Y) Awesome!

I am shivering in studio. Like a serious. Somemore I am wearing knitted wear and jeans. Don't even know why it is so cold. I am seriously hungry!

Thankful.

2012-01-17T00:12:00.000+08:00

You came knocking on my door.

Want.

2012-01-13T11:50:00.002+08:00

A Want.

School has been alright. Pressure is building up. Been doing well for IVP . IVP was tough. Moments of panicked. I froze up during the match. Totally don't know what to do. I just took deep breathe to keep calm. I know if I don't pull myself up, no one will help me. I admit it took me awhile to build up my confidence. Maybe I always been afraid.

Design is tough. I know. But I never knew it will be that tiring. Really. But I guess life isn't that fair afterall (:

You Da One.

2012-01-11T23:13:00.000+08:00

My Love is Your Love.
You are Da One, I am loving.

Disaster.

2012-01-08T10:40:00.002+08:00

It is nothing but disaster.

I am feeling stressed up right now. Just the bloody first week of the school, I am already feeling that way. Tension formed. It sucks. It really do. I feel like nothing is going the correct direction. Future just seem blur to me now. Maybe I never belong, Maybe I do.

Honey Trees.

2012-01-04T10:54:00.001+08:00

They are awesome.

Never.

2012-01-02T22:56:00.002+08:00

The fact is I never belong. I tried to belong in this world. Tried to fit in but I don't. A part of me don't. I wish I can stop going to school. Stop all these. I want to get away. I ain't ready to face it. Not yet. Not now. I don't know when will I be ready. I just know I am scare.

New year.

2012-01-01T23:25:00.002+08:00

Can never agree more.

It is 1/1/12. Well, I will have a hard time getting use to writing 2012. A new year. Time do pass real quickly. A year, 2011, that had a lot of downs but yet, there were ups (: I am glad I got know new friends and loving them all! But 2011 had been great.

Time to lead a better life and Treasure each day more! I can't wait to feel free. Be free actually. Hoping that day will come. Been listening to First Aid Kid and Incubus. Great songs.

Would you?

2011-12-31T19:10:00.001+08:00

Would you be there?
New year's Eve. Nothing seemed special. Everything feels the same.
I will end it in 2011.
I will start a new beginning in 2012.
Forgetting you.
That is the only way out.

Mad.

2011-12-21T19:33:00.002+08:00

Beauty Behind The Mask.

Yesterday, just arrived in Singapore. Had a relaxing time @ Bintan. Seriously, Bintan Lagoon Resort is awesome (Y) There is an Italian restaurant called ORZO. A must to go. It is quite pricy but I am in love with their pasta & their desert! Yums. Miss the food there!

The best part is the swimming pool! It is 2.2m deep! Yes I love deep pool. A fun time to just dive & forget everything is around you! Seriously, shiok! Didn't take my DSLR there as I just wanna relax rather than camwhore! I will totally go there next time but during summer.

It was raining heavily almost everyday! But at least, I managed to swim, go to the beach & have drinks so it's alright! I just realized holiday is bloody short. Goddamn it ):

Winter

2011-12-13T11:53:00.003+08:00

I want that kind of hair.

Winter is here though I am living in a country which is only filled with sunshine and rain. Well, among all 4 seasons, Winter is my favourite. I mean the fur, the thick coats, the tights and boots! They are just my favourite! I wont say I want winter forever, I do love the sun. In fact, I love being under the sun. It keeps me warm. I feel comfortable at the same time.

If only I experience snow. Wow I will feel super happy! I wanna colour my hair ( AGAIN ) my hair is damaged. Well, I have been dropping a lot of hair. Seriously! it is so bad ): I shall wait abit long before I wanna colour my hair. For now, just a haircut!

Over.

2011-12-09T10:49:00.001+08:00

Time of our life.

Holidays are here! woohoo. submissions are over ( just for now ) Damn! Didn't sleep last night. I feeling effing sleepy & tired. Really tired.

Panda.

2011-12-02T20:31:00.002+08:00

PANDA LOOKALIKE!

At this rate, I am turning panda. Waiting for stuff to dry. Seriously, it is killing me. I am so bored. I don't feel like rendering at all. Seriously, it sucks! Miss watching movie with my friends. I want to watch tons of movie ): Need accompany to shop too. Mama ask me to go shopping!

Well well well, after next week, I need to go shopping! & Plus, I am stopping work soon. I am seriously tired over working. At some point of time, you wish to stop and rest. I miss accompanying my parents out for shopping. Plus, christmas is coming! I need to buy presents for my family. Hmm wonder what they want!

Mama definitely need new clothes. Pop, he has everything. maybe CD albums of classical music. Bro, he totally want a speaker. Sis, she loves her dresses but she is growing! Damn. Why is she growing so fast?!

My eyes are shutting! I need to rest! ):

Perfection.

2011-12-01T10:26:00.004+08:00

BELOVED, ANNOYING SISTER! (:

Feeling sad today. Partly due to my design work. I wonder when will it ever end! I must press on. I ain't going to give in. I can't give up cause of my grade. I must not. I must press on.

Broken.

2011-11-30T12:06:00.001+08:00

Uncertainty.

I am the biggest bitch you ever met. Be it Mr Adam. Yes, your name appeared. I don't really care about how you see me as. Cause you know something, I don't want to carry on this bullshit game. Don't be greedy young man & fall for so many girls at the same time, you may hurt yourself. I am glad so many girls dated you within 4 weeks. Well mister, Good for you. I don't really wanna care about it. Just don't annoy my friend with the same problem. If the reason is just because I don't wanna talk to you, you are being lame.

Yes, I don't want be your friend cause apparently, I can't stand your nonsense. So please, save yourself and stop being an ass. Stop troubling my friend. You find plenty of girls since some give you happiness. I am fine without you.

Yes, fucking fine, actually, even better without you. Be it if I am mean but I had enough of your damn ass nonsense.

Tired.

2011-11-28T19:05:00.004+08:00

TIRED & YET GIVING SUCH STUPID FACE LOOK.

I am exhausted. I wanna rest. But yet, I can't. So I excused myself from all those design stuff & decided to blog. Suddenly, I have the blogging mood. Omg. I feel shitty right now. There is so many things that is left unattended! I never felt so lost before. Or maybe I did.

History repeating itself ain't it? The life of a designer. Stressful, Outbreaks of pimples. It just stinks. I can feel the difference between poly & secondary. The lecture just don't care. It really sucks man. I totally hate it. Sick for two days, miss tons of stuff and lecturer can't be bothered & so do I. Fuck yes Fuck.

Untitled.

2011-11-27T15:50:00.001+08:00

I miss having you by my side. I really do. Need to head down to Chips soon. Need a drink & my wings. Miss those times when I was high when I can ignore all my problems.

Left.

2011-11-24T21:04:00.003+08:00

Nobody really stay. Nobody really listens. Knowing he ain't coming back, yet, I yearned for him. I will wait for him. 1 year, 1 month. I will wait.

Miss.

2011-11-23T20:43:00.001+08:00

It's all unclear.

Sweet.

2011-11-18T22:10:00.003+08:00

It has been a long time since I effing blogged. Omg. been real busy with my works. It is just so suffocating. Been drinking alot too. I need to cut down on beer ):

If only.

2011-10-28T00:04:00.002+08:00

.MY FUTURE BIRTHDAY CAKE.

There has been so many mini assignments. Lazy to start doing anything. Maybe I shall do doing my 3hrs break @ work on a Saturday. Today, for the first time, I woke up early and went to Macritche Reservoir to take pictures. The effing pissed off part is : I lost my damn earphones there. It made me so fucking pissed. It is like Wtf ):

I feel so sad when my music is gone. Like no music in life = no me. Likeaseriousgirl! Thank god mama has extra earphones for me or else, I will be sad for this week.

School start.

2011-10-18T20:57:00.004+08:00

I have been in a relationship with myself for 17 years.

School just started! Loving it? Hating it? I have zero idea. I just freaking now. It is time to draw, design and sleep super late! Pimples will be popping out! Crappy crappy oh crappy! Super tired. I met most of my lecturers and they seemed nice but super stern and strict. It is like I must be punctual. At least, last semester we have 15 mins grace! Now totally, zero!

The best part, I thought my timetable was awesome! It was such a lie! SP cheat my feelings! I have class on friday and I end @ 6 pm on thursday! It totally suck to the max! But I guess I will love DXPD. It is my passion, my interest, my dream. I must prove to Erik that I want it badly, to do well and do my very best (:

Never-ending.

2011-10-14T19:30:00.002+08:00

My room is a total mess. I meant literally. Seriously, I don't know how long will I be able to pack finish my stuff. Gosh. I threw away a lot of bullshit stuff that isn't needed at all. In the first place, I didn't even know why I bought those useless stuff. Waste my money and space! I am half-way through packing! I need to buck up!

Been going to the gym/going training. Po-Lite is coming. Totally not sure if I am excited about it! And I dye my hair midnight blue. Black under white light, Blue under sunlight. Just wanna go low at the moment. Bleaching hair is fucking damaging and I don't wanna do that anymore!

School is gonna start. Excited?! ^^

School is starting soon.

2011-10-11T15:15:00.000+08:00

I am finally resting! I need to finish my laptop sleeve ):

Hoping.

2011-10-05T22:55:00.004+08:00

Lovely Sister.

Effing tired from work. Been working everyday! I realized I can't survive with just hundreds per paycheck. I love shopping! Clothes is everything, Shoes are the spark, Accessories are the fillings. All of that add up together. They are my lovelies! I been shopping like mad & it is time to save up!

I totally came up with a money planner <3 love love!

Working.

2011-09-27T20:31:00.002+08:00

Omg. Working my ass off for money! Yes desperate for cash! Typical singaporean huh! Anyways i feel so full now! Had tom yum soup! <3 mummy the best!

A way,

2011-09-20T21:28:00.003+08:00

I have been working like mad girl! Totally busy. Trying to earn my money! Omg. desperately in need of money! I went to H&M and I felt like I was in a night market. People wearing clothes outside the fitting room and they ain't trying on coats/cardigan but skirt, dress and tees. It is like omg!

3.2 GPA sucks.

Sick.

2011-09-09T11:08:00.000+08:00

Freaking sick girl. Totally hating it man. Vomit. Headache. Omg.

Sponsor.

2011-09-01T19:11:00.008+08:00

ART PIECES (:

Here's some of my art pieces aka submission that totally killed me. Yes, it may not be the best but I am learning (: I am just not born to be perfect y'll know! Anyways, I am back. Sick girl recovered with just an injection and tons of sleep. I slept like a total pig. Seriously, I have never slept so much continuously!

I miss working. Actually, I miss money. I have never felt so desperate for money! Maybe I want to save save as I have been spending it away, drinking and shopping and shopping and lastly, art materials. Totally man! Time to save up! (: Going to malacca for badminton friendly match. Ah crap. ):

Awesome.

2011-08-30T22:01:00.002+08:00

THE QUEEN OF EPIC FACES.

Holidays are here. Me = mad happy. Stress is gone ( @ the moment ) Time to work / Time to go for training! Common foundation ended. I am definitely missing my class but it is time to go back to my course and get down and dirty! Teacher's day is coming! I am definitely going back secondary school to meet my teachers and greet my favourite stall ( MAKAN DI SINI )

I got a new gf : Leonda. Mad funny! She asked one of my guy friend : So ... do you like Swedish's meatball/ Singaporean's meatball? Joke to the max! And the funny part is the guy didn't get it! Omg! Yesterday headed to ikea for meatballs and ice cream! It was awesome! I didn't know ikea's food taste so great and cheap! (Y)

I am happygirl again!

End.

2011-08-17T10:14:00.000+08:00

It is all coming to an end (: I am gonna miss my class definitely.

Please.

2011-08-06T14:55:00.001+08:00

An old photo.

This photo was taken on the day when I was enjoying the time of my life. I was alone but yet, I feel calm and stress-free. I want to get away again. I am going crazy. Very crazy. It is like every part of me is falling apart. I dislike it. I do.

It is like everyone is so free but me ... no.

Hold.

2011-08-01T17:16:00.001+08:00

I can barely think right now. I never felt so stress before. Everything seems wrong or falling apart. It just wrong.

Stress.

2011-07-22T21:37:00.002+08:00

Wish you were here with me.

Finally, I have time to blog! Been really busy with the big projects! I got to create a playground & create a wire sculpture that represents me, a fantasy creature! I have been really busy with those two huge projects. Tons of trial and error. I was quite upset sometimes that no matter, how much I try, I got brain stuck! Like mind fucked you know! ^^ Thank god Ivan was there to save me & help me with my playground project!

As for the fantasy creature, I need to thank my boy for helping me! He is the best ( though sometimes he lazy bum! ) He can draw so much better than me! He is like an awesome artist. He helped me create a creature that is so pretty! It is so much better than mine. Mine is like .. some cutie pie! I shall post the picture for comparison!

Now ... I just need to create the playground and framework of my creature & I am here, blogging. So wrong. This is so wrong! I want to start but yet, I am lazy you know! And, I haven bathe yet, just got home & the next time I did was switching on my lappy and tumblr! Tumblr is the only way I can escape (:

Ahhh. It is time for me to do my work!

I Love You.

2011-07-17T23:27:00.002+08:00

I just got back from work. Coughing like mad. It just sucks man. It is like my cough is never-ending. Non-stop, 24/7. Annoyed! Been like a busy girl. It kinda of suck man. I miss my boy alot. And sometimes, I wonder if he miss me too! If he doesn't, he will get his butt kicked! ^^ I am such a mean person.

Huge projects coming up & I don't know if I will have the heart to it. I need like fucking time & time management & motivation & determination! Wow. There is a lot things I need. Ah crap.

Pray.

2011-07-11T15:34:00.003+08:00

Getting demoralized all over again. The feeling of it stinks. It really do. I feel like breaking down. I get my hopes up high, excited about each project and I got dragged down like it was no one's business. The feeling is painful. Like my heart went numb. I don't know who to turn to anymore. I just feel like walking away. Holding back my tears sucks.

The urge to cry, to let my feelings out stinks. Yes it really do. What if I cry and maybe I do feel better? What if crying do make someone feel better? Maybe it do. Maybe it will allow me to think better, letting out my pain, my stress, my sorrow out, using those tears. Just those tears.

I want to. I need to. I feel like I should.

Someday.

2011-07-07T16:56:00.003+08:00

MY DARLING & ME <3

It is just another day. Yesterday, a lot of things happened. I better keep track of my projects. I feel lost right now cause I barely know what to do! Anyways, I am soaking myself with korean love ost songs. Yes, I dislike kpop but I do admit when comes to love songs, korean singers really kill it well. I really love this song that my darling introduced me.

I am dying of boredom right now. And Victor is letting me listen to Mika-Happy ending! He is a huge big Mika fan.

i am here when you need me.
that is the most i can do.

I wish I knew.

2011-07-04T11:34:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, you just hope you can freaking someone's mind. And that is what I am feeling now. I don't know what I really want now. It just feel so weird. Funny feeling I guess. Now I am @ SP design studio. Basically, waiting for my things to dry. Seriously, it is drying damn slowly like a snail crawling!

Anyways, it has been quite awhile I blogged. I feel so weird right now. Cause a lot of things is going through my mind. Tons of stuff. I can barely breathe right now. Arghhh. Feeling so tired and I guess I need to avoid as much as I can.

Lost.

2011-06-30T08:11:00.002+08:00

OMG! I am so dead. I haven't do finish my drafts on my portfolio! It kinda sucks right? I hate this damn feeling. I need to stay awake. Yesterday, Kylie Minogue was the bomb! She totally gave me the gaga feel but overall, her outfits & her dancers were amazing. She just look so stunning on stage. I guess a lot of effort was put into her choreographing. She was so amazing. She ended her performance with her new hit : all the lovers! I was so happy can? Well, I like that song! I'm lovin' it.

Wish.

2011-06-27T01:17:00.001+08:00

After a long day at work, I am still wide awake when I know that I am very tired. But why? Why can't I shut my eyes and not think of anything? Just lying down, letting the world revolve around you for one moment & you wish you can just stop at that very moment. I am excited for school yet, I am not looking forward for project submission. It sucks.

Jetlagged.

2011-06-22T22:27:00.002+08:00

SAD.

HAPPY.

MY NEW HAIRSTYLE & HAIR DYE (Y)
purple & blue ftw.

I can barely smile right now. My ass is hurting real badly. My body is aching like mad. My neck is stiff. My body is freaking hot, as in literally burning! I am so having a fever right now. Arghhh. Trying to get my design done for silkscreen but it is so hard. I have so many small details that need to be cut out. Crap. It is not a good sign. NO IT AIN'T!

I wonder if I can use the pen knife & cut curve lines easily. I hope * finger cross * that I wont cut my own finger. I still remember during linocut. Omg. I was so clumsy that I cut my finger. It bled like no one's business. Yesterday was a pretty rough day. It wasn't a pleasant day for me but I guess. It kinda of stinks. It is like I was slapped in the face. It just sucks when you felt like you were being played with.

I guess I can forgive what happened. I can't bring myself to hate the guy I love. So be it (: I still got long way ahead! Got to keep my life optimistic. Having an awesome hairstyle. Being me. I don't give a damn for anyone right now. But I should give a damn to my work cause I am lagging behind. Crap.

Hope.

2011-06-21T09:55:00.002+08:00

Long way to go.

i can barely feel your existence in my life.

I've been slacking. Almost every single day, I feel so exhausted & sleepy, which totally stinks. Finally, today I managed to do my journal & my development for my project. * lucky me * Thank god that Hakim message me to wake up me or else, I will be sleeping. He is awesome (Y)

I think I am going to skip training tomorrow.

Finally.

2011-06-18T10:34:00.003+08:00

Got back from Malacca. I am dying. A huge pile of works waiting for me, calling me. Crap. I hate it. Feeling so sleepy now. This weather is just freaking awesome (Y) I just feel like lying on my bed, staring on the ceiling and let time just fly by! Anyways, Malacca was fun! But things there are getting more expensive! ):< Not good! I was suppose to splurge but I didn't cause things there are getting more expensive!

But thank god, Mango was having a huge sale so I manged to buy clothes! Yippppeeeee! A.W.E.S.O.M.E right! I managed to buy back some keychains for my friends (Y) Hopefully can meet up with those girls and dude! I miss them tons! Busy people! And the best part is I left one week of holiday so I must use it well ):

BUCK UP!

Love.

2011-06-12T00:17:00.002+08:00

I am a busy girl. Yes indeed I am. Truely.
Anyways, Thanks for being there.
You rock. Of course you do (:
You are my one and only.

Cold.

2011-06-02T17:29:00.002+08:00

Holidays are coming. Recently, everyday has become submission days. Other courses are having common test while I am having projects submission! Should I be happy? Anyways, these photos are taken today ( JUST! ) Spamming in class while classmates having presentation. I guess the whole class were camwhoring! I was like camwhoring & doing presentation slides. I rock in multi-tasking!

I am super busy. I got to do portofolio and silkscreen and tons of stuff that is uncountable. Yes, it is never ending. Seriously, no ending! ): I have been deprived for sleep. Like seriously, I am in need of sleep. Sleep is more like my best friend ( at the moment )! Anyways, JUNE IS HERE! It means ..... MY BIRTHDAY! Okay, after celebrating my birthday for 16 years, it still seems SPECIAL ( somehow )

I MISS MS PANG LI TING!

She is enjoying her time @ Korea while I am suffering in this cold room! Anyways, secondary school student having holidays. AH CRAP. how I wiss I am secondary student AGAIN!

Just a day.

2011-05-28T23:28:00.002+08:00

I am feeling so tired & restless & my nose is like running tap. It just stinks! The best part is I am feeling so sleepy and lazy! It must be the lazy song by Bruno Mars. My eyes want to shut anytime soon! Anyways, holidays are coming up soon! However, I have tons of things to do! It is totally sucky!

I just miss the times with my good old pals! (Y) MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING SOON! YIPPPPPPEEEE! Need to buy J shoes & bags!

You know.

2011-05-23T12:02:00.002+08:00

I am back ( at the moment ). Life is freaking hectic. It is literally killing me. I am dying due to lack of sleep & energy. ( Yes, I am exaggerating. ) Life is a bitch, this I got to admit. I never got the time to go shop for shoes & bags for myself. I never get to spend time with my family and friends. It sucks when pop scolds me out of the sudden cause I have been working & studying.

I am just tired. It is when I only got to sleep like a few hours per day. Mind fucked! I will hold on for another 2 more weeks when HOLIDAY STARTS! (Y)

D5000

2011-05-16T15:44:00.002+08:00

I BOUGHT MY BABY TODAY!

For the past few days, everyday was a bad day. Tons of homework to do! ): Literally feel like dying. Designers ( sometimes ) do have no life. But it is my passion. I do what I love so I don't mind (: Anyways, today I had like 5 hours break so I went to head down to Penisular to buy my baby, Nikon D5000! Chio baby <3 Loving my DSLR!

I am having lesson now. Feeling awfully tired, eyes closing, weak body, poor mind. Crap day. Later having badminton training. Super tired! ):

Don't know why.

2011-05-08T18:19:00.003+08:00

VANITY FAIR.

It is Sunday. Finally, a day at home, spending time with my family. This post is going to be freaking emotional. I have no idea what turned me off. Serious shit. I just feel upset. Really upset. I don't know why. I don't know what got into me. Must be some sad sickness passed down ( wait does it exist? )

Norah Jones - Don't know why.

More in Life.

2011-05-03T13:59:00.004+08:00

MY FAVOURITE PEOPLE!

Hello Blog! I have been learning awesome stuffs & doing stuffs that I quite dislike which is making BRICKBOY! It stinks! Totally! I am so lazy bum & I got 4 postcard to draw & paint! I am becoming an art student! OMG! I am learning typography, painting, shading & many more! There are so many to learn but so little time ): I think I can't sleep tonight! My eye bags will become bigger.

Crappy crappy oh crappy! Anyways, REBECCA BLACK CAME OUT WITH A NEW SONG ( heard from my friend ) I thought ( maybe? just might? ) the song : " Friday " just ruin her name & I thought she can actually sing! So ..... I went to hear her new song : " Prom Night ". Basically, after that song, I got my facts right!

REBECCA BLACK CAN'T SING.

Yes, she got the harmony. But, her voice, the auto-tune, just ruin the music. Her first " FAMOUS " hit, FRIDAY, is actually not that bad. It is still music. It is like black eyed peas : " I gotta feeling " The lyrics involved 7 days of a week. And that song R.O.C.K.S! It didn't suck. Plus, I have seen other version of Friday! It is clear that the reason why it stinks wasn't due to its lyrics. It was MORE LIKE REBECCA BLACK JUST DOESN'T HAVE AN AWESOME VOICE! I love the tucker's version. It was nice, hippie, fun song to just groove along! Rebecca black just made her song sounded stupid! I know she is 13 but if she got the voice, age doesn't matter.

I haven't been following to the lastest pop hits! I am listening to radioheads/ city and colours. Awesome songs. I don't seem to get sick of it! ^^

Time stopped.

2011-04-28T20:33:00.004+08:00

MY DARLING & ME! ♥

DARLING, ME & VICTOR!

BOM & ME!

GOSH! I have been busy! Super, duper busy! When they said design school will be hectic, they meant shit man! ^^ Overall, I met awesome people! Now I have another 2 new projects! When one goes, another one comes! What goes around, comes around! I am choosing CCA!

Singapore Poly has so many awesome CCAs! I feel like joining all?! It is will be super fun to just try out every cca! ^^ I feel like joining jazz band! I love jazz & blues a lot! It will be totally awesome if I join jazz band! ^^ Hopefully, tmr, I can go sign up for that :X I guess, no more badminton for me! ):

Faggot.

2011-04-26T23:25:00.003+08:00

THE TWO PAINTINGS AMONG 4 I DID!

FAGGOT!

It has been a long time since I blogged. I have been real busy! It is like pile of works just dumped @ me! But just to do smth I love, why not huh? I am deprived of sleep!

HEAVY EYEBAGS ON WATCH!

Works.

2011-04-22T23:55:00.001+08:00

Basically, the first week of school, painting, researching, sketching are my new best friends! I am stuffed with tons of work! My eyelids are getting heavier each time. I am so exhausted. I wish I have more time!

I CAN BARELY CATCH UP! ):

Class.

2011-04-19T23:15:00.001+08:00

Gosh. Just the 2nd day of school, I am getting tons of work! It is painting, painting & painting! I love painting but the best part of it is .. I HATE CLEARING UP! Yes yes, I am ultra lazybum! The paintings will be counted so I am freaking scare & I need like extra copies to color on! :X

First day of Poly Life

2011-04-18T21:15:00.002+08:00

I was late for 30 minutes & as 30 minutes passed, I was out off class.

Karma Police

2011-04-15T13:20:00.000+08:00

I hope I was the sweet, nice girl but the fact remains.
I ain't.

Busy.

2011-04-15T09:10:00.002+08:00

BUSYGIRL!

It have been a long time since I blogged! I have been busy hanging out with my girls & spamming Jacqueline's Itouch! Next time, they will be spamming my DSLR! OMG! I can't wait for DSLR to arrive! I will definitely spam my photos! VANITY FAIR! SP had started their orientation & guess what, SCHOOL STARTS NEXT MONDAY!

EXCITED OR WHAT?!

Though, I guess I will be super tired & piled up with projects & spending tons of money for design course but it is worth the while! My group is AN AWESOME GAY GROUP! We are the most hyper-active can? It is like we can scream out of the sudden & other groups just blindly stare & thinking : '' WTF? " But my group is seriously super bonded! Though some may feel left out cause they are super duper quiet but we try to bring them into the FUN!

We also have president & vice-president! My group just freaking rock can?! The best part is my group leaders which are the seniors : ROCK! (Y) They are super awesome & cool!

Belief.

2011-04-04T01:23:00.002+08:00

Belief.

It is 1.30 am, 4 April. I don't know why I can't fall asleep. My mind is filled with stuff. Useless & dumb stuff which I don't want to talk about. Just not right now. I miss those times when I am still young, unknown to the outside world.

I am not the little miss perfect girl. I ain't the sweet, nice, attractive & pretty girl. There are part of me which is dark. I don't like opening up to people. It is taking me quite awhile to do that. To accept reality that I ain't the only one suffering for heartaches, family problems, health problems. When I was on the train, I look around, blasting the Beatles's music/Gavin degraw's music. I start thinking how many people been through heartaches/ having family problems & just want to escape it sometimes/want to run away to a far away land & never to return to this world?

I wonder how many people feel alone once in their life & never get to tell anyone about their sadness & their pain. It is these thoughts that made me think that I ain't alone, ain't the only one who facing shit in their life! I miss my friends, I really do. How I wish one day, the world will stop for just one moment & let everyone enjoy their love ones' accompany. Just one day, one moment will make a difference, make a change.

I am over it.

2011-04-01T12:57:00.002+08:00

I AM PRETTY RED.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO
MY AWESOME MANAGER ( WENDY! )

Yesterday was one of my colleague's last day ): We went to celebrate & I went to drink & I got pretty red but wasn't drunk. I hate it when my face got red so freaking easy! I pretty to act drunk & they believe me leh! It seems like my acting is pretty good. Maybe cause my face was mad red. I love my workplace for sure & there is a new supervisor & she seemed pretty awesome! (Y)

School is soon going to start & I can't wait. Hopefully, I will be same class with miss jacqueline! I am so lovin' my girls, LI TING, JAC, XZ, SAM, CLARA & MY MANY MANY GIRLFRIENDS! I am lovin' my guy friends too :D

Bonded.

2011-03-31T11:02:00.015+08:00

Yesterday was an awesome day! Though my freaking heels broke down on me & we must walk alot till my feet hurt, still, I had a lot of fun! I was frustrated @ mannan's workplace! It is OUT OF THE PLACE! The place is so quiet & mostly, clubbing/shisha-ing people to hang out around that area ( Haji Lane )

I have tons of photos! Enjoy looking @ my ugly face & my friends' chio faces!

JAC LOOK LIKE KEOLA!

@ KBOX TIME!

A place.

2011-03-30T09:39:00.000+08:00

I just came back from camp. I though camp won't be so much fun but it proved me wrong! I got to meet great seniors & awesome friends (: The time spent was well-spent! I totally enjoyed myself though I totally dislike the running part. It is just damn tiring ): My body is aching badly! Anyways, I am going out with my favourite girls! I will upload photos when I am back (:

Forever the sickest kid

2011-03-25T12:37:00.002+08:00

XZ DARLING & ME!

I will upload the rest of the photos when my new laptop has done its update & stuff & I still need to transfer tons of stuff. One word to describe : SIAN. I had a great time with my usual girls : XZ, SAM & JAC ♥ I am lovin' them. We were camwhoring all the way! Totally vain! But I am so going to miss XZ & SAM with school reopens! Hope things don't change :O

I am lovin' my job but sometimes, I get the " sian/ sleepy " mode which totally stinks! I should shake it off. Anyways, I got a compliment letter from a customer (Y) Oh yeah! Happygurl1994! I didn't expect it but thanks to the customer :) At least now ( I HOPE ), more people will know about THB ( THE HANDBURGER! ) My manager said I have been going on dates! SO NOT TRUE. She said I was so distracted or no mood to work )): It is really cause I was in the sleepy mode! Crappy oh crappy!

Tmr I will be going for camp! The SD CAMP IN SP! I can't wait but yet, finding it abit awkward cause I know nobody but I guess I do need to make friends huh! ^^ I just go & give it a try. Plus, I need a break from work (: Maybe after camp, I WILL BE SUPER HYPER ACTIVE & START WORKING! :D Hopefully, that will make it work.

For the past few weeks, I have been watching " Whale Wars " It is about a team named : Sea Shepherd, which is set up to stop Japanese people from whaling. It is super upsetting when a whale have been shot & the sea is filled with blood. Anyways, I do hope the people in Japan are okay & the damage is huge & maybe we should start caring about The Mother Nature, Earth.

Lazy.

2011-03-21T22:39:00.004+08:00

VANITY!

Photos.

2011-03-19T21:59:00.004+08:00

LOVING MY FRIENDS!

Just another day.

2011-03-15T13:37:00.002+08:00

YUM YUM!

I hate gastric flu! I hate puking after eating ): I wish I didn't got the gastric flu. It really stinks. I have been working happily! Until recently, a new manager came which changes the whole environment to another whole new level.

I dislike him. I didn't want to know him. Yes, I am super duper selfish biatch. Seriously, He just made the work place a dull place. He demands so much & want us to adapt to changes but afterwards, he said we can do what we like. It is not he is a bad person or something. He is just a person who follow by the book, doesn't have a thinking of his own you know. We, Humans, have a brain to think & to use & to rely. He just don't want to think outside the box.

We became more serious & laughters among us dampened until anvis came back & lighten the mood! But there is a stain/ a scar that just can't be erase off so easily. He is like a pair of eagles eyes, staring & glaring @ us, waiting for its prey to make a small little mistake. A tiny little mistake will lead to a big one which no one likes. Sometimes people should let loose. Why be so uptight, make their own life so tough & suck to the max?

Anyways, Thank god he transfer to some other branch. I guess it do allow the tension in the atmosphere to loosen up a little. Anyways, poly is starting soon. I am going for the camp & I guess the seniors & people there are quite friendly (: I can't wait!

Lost.

2011-03-11T20:31:00.000+08:00

Coloured.

2011-03-11T12:48:00.002+08:00

I dyed my hair & in the end, IT WASN'T VERY OBVIOUS! Somehow I like it (Y) The hairstylist was super crazy. She gave me a red wine colour base which is quite settled. I don't want go for bright boom colours. She highlighted reddish-brown colour! IF only, she highlighted more @ different part of my hair but it will make my hair ordinary SO .... I AM OKAY WITH IT (Y)!

Missing.

2011-03-10T12:13:00.002+08:00

Break.

2011-03-09T11:36:00.002+08:00

HEELS♥

Ever since I became 16, I am in love with shoes! That's why I am a girl! Heels is a must must man! Gosh. I am in need of shoes. Time to throw away old shoes that are broken! I got my pay for tangs! So, I guess I am going to do something to my hair. The rest : SAVINGS!

I will ask my mama sponsor me money for my shoes, bags (: I am in need of bag but currently, I don't know what bag is suitable for me to bring to poly & stuff tons of stuff in it. I am in love with river island bag but .. I guess no more stock ): There are so much stuff to do. I can't wait to get my pay from THB, which is still quite long! I just want to save the money I earned & also, spent on USEFUL STUFF.

Omg, I am such a liar! I always spent on clothes & accessories! :X I must control!

Rest.

2011-03-07T09:42:00.004+08:00

Baby, Remember My Name.

I woke up freaking early! Not really actually. I thought I work @ 11 am but actually is 12 pm! * yawn * I am so tired. Yesterday went to celebrate my granny's birthday @ sheraton tower @ newton! The food were amazing! I was damn full! ): Brought granny chicken essence & herbal jelly for her to eat & eat & eat!

Working have been fun! THB ( somerset ) people are funny! They really made my day especially my manager ( wendy! ) Hopefully, it won't change with the new retail manager & Su Fen ( the higher position manager I think ) come today for a week ): Crap. Heard Su Fen is a very fierce person though she was the one who interviewed me! Hopefully, the new retail manager that is staying in THB ( somerset ) will be a nice nice person!

Thinking to colouring my hair. I should do it right! Thinking twice cause people kept commenting on my ( super ) black hair (:

COUSIN! ( some )
VANESSA & ME & JARYL!

Feel The Heat.

2011-03-06T23:18:00.003+08:00

Finally, I got the time to ( AT LEAST ) post some pictures!

FUGLY ME.

CUTE SIS.

OUTFIT.

ME & JAC (:

JUST ME.

Heading Out.

2011-02-27T16:47:00.000+08:00

HEADING OUT.

Handburger.

2011-02-21T21:47:00.002+08:00

I am going to work @ Handburger! Though, I don't know which outlet ( either Raffles City or Somerset 313 ) I will be @ but all well, at least I got a job right (: I can't wait to work!

Here is an awesome by Chris August (:

Chris August - Stranger.

Offline.

2011-02-18T22:59:00.000+08:00

I am in love with Adele, Chris August & Lady Antebellum.

Spammed.

2011-02-16T12:02:00.009+08:00

Today is just an ordinary day. I am blasting music from Lady Antebellum & Chris August. I am so into country music right now. The lyrics are so meaningful. I am happy for Lady Antebellum for taking 2 awards during grammy's ( I think it is 2 ) Chris August's music is stuck in my head right now! ♥

I browsed through the classified ads to search for any FnB jobs. I saw TONI&GUY are hiring salon apprentice! It seems cool man but mama say the pay will be low. However, ( I guess ) at least I get to move around & do something, rather than stand up & do nothing right? It is like staying @ home but staying @ home will be a much better choice cause at least, I got my laptop & the television to accompany me!

Finding job is tough ): I seriously need to save money. I have been spending money on clothes :X Thus, I really need a job. I am desperate for a job. Mum always nag @ me about me staying @ home & just lazing around, doing nothing meaningful to my life. That ain't true! I am reading magazine on beauty & stuff!

I am living in my own little world, not ready to face the cruel reality. The fact is father doesn't really wanna work anymore due to unhappiness @ his workplace ( I think ). I am going poly which probably would cost a bomb. My sister just started primary school. My brother having O's this year. I am spending my own money & earning money to support myself so my family will have lesser burden.

IT JUST SUCKS!

All well, that's why this is call L.I.F.E ♥

Anyways, I always love my life, no matter how hard it is & I'm still lovin' it (: Anyways, I am changing my lifestyle! I am so going to stay away from junk food ( no matter how hard it is going to be )! Hopefully, I will keep my own promise!

Anyways, there are more photos during VDAY when I spent with my amazing girls! We went to eat @ heeren @ a japanese buffet restaurant : Kiseki. The food were okay but we spent our time playing with a cute small boy! He is really damn cute! Too bad, I tried taking photo of him but he just keep moving around & then, the photo would be blurry!

Anyways, I AM SPAMMING PHOTOS :

ME & XZ.

ME & SAM

ME & JAC

ME & XZ & SAM.

THE GIRLS (:

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Happy Valentine Day!

2011-02-14T23:22:00.005+08:00

FIRSTLY,

♥ HAPPY VALENTINE DAY! ♥

Today, I spent my VDAY with my babes : Samantha, Xue Zhen & Jagabee (: Though I wish I can go out with Li Ting too BUT too bad, she got freaking school ): Miss that bitchy girl ♥

Anyways, Me & Xz & Sam took tons of photo tgt! I shall upload some ...

XZ & ME ♥

ME, XZ & SAM ♥

Two.

2011-02-13T20:37:00.003+08:00

ME & JACQUELINE (:

Sleepless Night

2011-02-10T22:29:00.002+08:00

I can barely sleep although my body is physically tired. My mind is filled with stuff & my phone is playing : '' Hear You Me '' by Jimmy Eat World & I am chatting with Arlinka if 406'10 is having any reunion dinner. Seriously, my mood ( ALL OF THE SUDDEN ) dampened ):

BUTTT!

I WANNA WISH MY MOTHER :

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (:

Back to reality. Mummy is getting over & she blamed me for spending ALMOST all the money I earned. ( I managed to save like 10 dollars! ) Well, I guess ( mostly ) the money was well-spent somehow. The rest was used for my pocket money & transport money. I am officially becoming an adult. But it do stinks when you realised you didn't save a shit! But that's when the red packets come along! (:

That is the good part (Y) It just feel good when you still get to collect tons of red packets! Anyways, hopefully, the pay for tangs will come during 27 feb! I am waiting for that day ( anxiously ) I just hope I get to work @ Marche & they will hire me (: I can't wait for the trial @ Marche! It is totally a different challenge. It ain't like retail sales.

It will be more tiring but yet, I find a great sense of joy! At least Hao Yuan will be there with me @ the trial. In case I faint or smth OR my gastric flu just ( all of the sudden ) acts up & I needed someone to cover me. Yeah, he is my good friend! He will be there.

The reason behind my sad sad ( super duper sad ) mood is I miss my secondary school friends (:

Sick.

2011-02-10T11:28:00.002+08:00

Finally! I can use my laptop (: I have been ill for the past few days & it sucks. I kept vomiting & having headaches. It just stinks when I got GASTRIC FLU on the second day of lunar new year! Yes, GASTRIC FLU! The news reported that the number of cases of people getting gastric flu INCREASES! I am one of them ):

CRAP!

Until now, I am trying to watch my diet & stay away from my favourite spice : CHILI! It is really damn hard ): I have been eating chili since IDK WHEN. It just sucks when I must stop eating chili for the time being ):

At least during the first 3 days of new year, I managed to collect my HONG BAOS! (:

Gloomy Weather.

2011-01-31T11:15:00.002+08:00

FREAKING CHIO NAILS! (Y)

I feel like going for a pedicure @ Milly's! But today's weather is just fucked up so I decided to stay at home & just be troubled over my job! I have been working for 9.5 hours per day ): one week, two off days. But, I just don't feel happy man though my pay is seriously damn good! It is just I don't feel like I fit in ):

I still remember when I was working @ Robinsons, I was mad happy! It is like my seniors were so nice to me! & At least, mannan was one of my colleagues but in different department! When I have nothing to do, I can fold towels non stop! I hate doing nothing. It is just boring that's why I took a job in the first place! The job is suppose to cure my boredom! In the end, it ain't!

I felt like I belong in Robinsons. I never thought of quitting. I am still young & I want try F&B business ): I should right?! It is like my life is too short to be troubled over such small matter! My parents won't listen to me! ):

I am feeling so annoyed! It just sucks :O I want to go shopping but I need to save money cause mama don't want to give me pocket money ): Well, LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE!

CHINESE NEW YEAR IS COMING!

HONG BAOS OTW!

Keep Up.

2011-01-25T22:20:00.001+08:00

Freaking Tired.

Jersey Shore.

2011-01-21T13:20:00.002+08:00

SAMMI '' SWEETHEART ''

PAUL D.♥

JERSEY SHORE CAST!

Filled With Warmth.

2011-01-19T19:41:00.002+08:00

♥ I COULD USE THIS RIGHT NOW ♥

Without work, my life is mundane. I will use the laptop, watch tv & reading books. Me = Reading books? I doubt any of my friends will think I read books. Anyways, I have been reading " The Outsiders "! I am loving the book. How I wish I can watch the movie! I just love the way the author describe Sodapop & Dally! I like (Y) I love Sodapop & Dally the most. Sodapop is the goofy guy while Dally is the mature, serious guy! I am going to search for the movie man! I will! I must!

Anyways, I will be working @ Tangs ( Vivocity ) The pay is good & well, I work at Robinson ( Centerpoint ) So I have work experience which is good & it is an advantage. Plus, the manager seemed quite happy with my presentation of myself! Yippee. I know I rock! Going to start work this Saturday!

Hopefully, the seniors are nice people!

You can if You want.

2011-01-18T15:19:00.001+08:00

Converse - A Must.

2011-01-17T19:33:00.002+08:00

Today was A.W.E.S.O.M.E!
Kekekekekeke.

I had an awesome time with my piano teacher & her student. Beginning, I didn't get what they saying cause they were talking about their family members. After awhile, they pulled me into the conversation! It was hilarious. I gotten my GRADE 8 CERTIFICATION!

Yipppee! It is finally in my arms! * home sweet home * The examiner is damn cute! He wrote : '' Well done for passing grade 8! '' It is like he seemed shocked that I passed! Anyways, so was my piano teacher! I guess I rock in surprising people! When people got a shock, they will look like this :

Yeah, exactly. Anyways, after lunch, head down to centerpoint & went to apply for a job @ starbucks! After that, I headed down to tangs for walk-in interview! After the interviews, my hands were itchy & I feel like doing crazy stuff like extending my eyelashes! All well, I think it ain't worth the money so I went shopping! I headed to forever 21! I fell in love with a tee from the moment I see it! I just took it as it was the last piece & bought it ( after trying! )

After that, I went to converse to buy a pair of converse shoe. It is a must ( for me ) to have a converse shoe. After buying a pair of converse shoe, I went to ION orchard to buy somethings for my mum that she requested. After that, I went to brought accessory! I went to NET & found a pair of short ( pinkish nude colour ) . I fell in love with it! OMG. So, I just brought.

I calculator how much I spent.

I spent .....

$138!

Okay. My own money ): But all well, it was a must to buy all those stuff! Hehehehe.

New Year Resolutions.

2011-01-14T13:53:00.003+08:00

KISS 2010 GOODBYE!

I know I am pretty late for New Year Resolutions. Well, what the heck huh. I am freaking bored at home but I can't get out of my house cause I am not feeling awesome & in additional, it seems like it is going to rain!

Anyways, 2010 was my O level year. It was pretty stressful. I was having a hard time handling my studies cause I pretty suck in studying mathematics, science. I was on the verge of just giving up but yet, I know I can't. I want to move on. I don't want stuck at the same position. It is pretty stupid! At least, I know my hard work paid off ( I guess ). I did pretty good for my standard.

To those people who looked down @ me, SUCK IT! I dpa to TP design course & they seemed uncertain of my O's result & they didn't accept me. I also dsa to MJC but they ( obviously ) rejected me due to my MYES.

Guess how much I got for L1R5?

TA-DA!

So MJC thought that I won't make it to JC with that kind of score. From that day onwards, I want to proof to people that I can study. & Today, I made them regret not taking me in! Plus, I (guess I ) am pretty glad that I didn't go to MJC cause I don't suit college. I do have thoughts of going to JC but after thinking twice, I doubt I will survive ' A ' level. My blood boils when I think of people looking down on me.

But I like the feeling of proving people wrong. At the end of the day, I am the one laughing at them! kekeke. I feel damn shiok! I am happy girl! Other than my O level, my life became much better. I became optimistic rather than pessimistic. Strange to the max. All well, I just hope this year will be good year.

Honestly, I can't wait to take hong baos! I will have tons of money to shop. Currently, I am waiting for my pay on 22 jan! I need those money for new clothes for poly life (: Seriously! I feel like throwing my clothes away. I guess I need second round of clearing clothes. I can't wait to go shopping!

I am so in love with the movie : '' BURLESQUE! ''

I was in love with Christina! She is so pretty & skinny in the movie! I caught the movie with arlinka & mannan! The show is worth the money. It is music, love & dance. I can't believe Mark ( Grey's anatomy ) is in the show. I don't know his real name :X Anyways, his character in the movie is the same in Grey's. I guess that is his true character! But he is hot!

IT IS A MUST TO WATCH!

I feel like watching again :X

edit.

After much thought, I know what is my new year resolutions.

1) I want my family to be happy. Lesser quarrels = peace. I can't stay in a home filled with shouts & screams. It sucks. It will make a huge impact in my life. Not only that, it can easily change my personality! I don't like.

2) I ( obviously ) want 2011 be better than 2010! I want 2011 be better than last year. I want to rock this year. I always say the same piece of shit but in the end, it is the same. So, I will just go with the flow. If God give me rain, I deal with the rain. If God give me sunshine, I treasure the sunshine!

3) I want to have a better life in SP ( hopefully I can get in! )

Now, to my neopets. Yeah, I know I am lame but come on! The pets are just so cute! Kawaiii ^^ Me likey!

Outsiders.

2011-01-13T20:44:00.002+08:00

Dally.

▲ Darry, Sodapop & Ponyboy ▲

OUTSIDERS!

I want to watch ):

Chosen.

2011-01-12T19:47:00.002+08:00

Today, I headed down to Singapore Poly & Ngee Ann Poly with Jikian. Both are great but at the end of the day, I have to finally choose the ONE & ONLY COURSE!

After much thinking & discussion,
I decided that SP has my favourite course :
'' EXPERIENCE & PRODUCT DESIGN! ''

Firstly, the reason behind my chosen course are :

NO 1 : The first year, we learn to do photography, interior & sculpture design stuff. It is like a wide range of variety for design. I always been wanting to try to do photography & now, I got to learn to do photography ( a little ) But, ain't it cool? I don't need to take photography as my course but I got to learn bits & pieces.

After the first year, we are going to focus on product design. We got to use photoshop, sketching & CAD. It will be an awesome ride since it is quite connected to DNT. Personally, I am a big fan of DNT. DNT was a joy in my life! It rock to the core! It is like creating new ideas, learning new ways of making interesting & creative product.

Other than that, I can choose interior design in SP which NP doesn't provide ( surprisingly ). But overall, I will want to choose product design from SP (: Unknowingly, I just found out that it was my dad's ex poly O.o Well, he seems pleased with my choice(s). Hopefully, I can get into the course I want!

Today, I also headed to NEX to go virtual land & buy new tongue studs ^^ ( Later go change my stud ) I went to virtual land with Jikian. There was the catching fish game which I thought I suck in catching fishes & I just use like 15 tokens. Played & Played, at the end of the day, I collected 388 tokens! Gosh!

I ROCK MAN!

Jikian was practically staring at me cause I guess I create a miracle man! kekekeke

O's.

2011-01-11T10:24:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I took my O's result slip. Honestly, Truthfully, I was please (: I didn't do very well but I did my very best & at least, I made my parents proud. ^^ Now, the bad part. I am spoiled with choices ):

It's a dream.

2011-01-08T08:34:00.000+08:00

I hope I will do well.

Dread.

2011-01-05T21:09:00.002+08:00

RANT POST.

O's result is coming out on Monday ( 10 jan ). I don't know what I am feeling right now. Scared? Worried? Nervous? It is a mixture of feelings that combine to one feeling : F.E.A.R! It is worse than taking O's. I realized that waiting for O's result is the scary part. I just want to score well. I want to make my parents proud. I did my part ): I hope it is good enough to get me through to the next round.

Every single night, I couldn't sleep well. My mind is occupied with O's O's O's! It is like O's is taking over my body. It really suck. It suck to the max. What if I get like 26 points like KNS like that. Or maybe like 30 points, I will not be able to survive under my father's hand. It is like anything is possible. It is just nerve-racking. I don't know what to do/think. I can just choose the courses I want which is mostly design's courses.

OH LORD, SAVE ME.

Beauty.

2011-01-04T19:49:00.002+08:00

I just can't stand people who thinks that they have awesome looks & awesome body doesn't give them the right, to just criticize other people's body. They don't have the bloody right to do that. So what if they have good looks & smart? They have their flaws. I am not saying everyone, who has good looks, is a bitch/bastard. Everyone is unique in their own way.

I hate to see people judging people's body. OMG.

Ripped.

2011-01-01T22:16:00.001+08:00

LT : I will blog tomorrow morning (: HOPEFULLY!

Insanity.

2010-12-30T14:32:00.004+08:00

I have been working in the afternoon shift from 3pm to 11pm. I would feel extremely tired @ the end of the day but yet, I will force myself to watch grey's anatomy. I am becoming crazy for once! Grey's anatomy is just too good man.

T.R Knight (:

Isn't he a cutie! ^^ It is just so sad to know that Geogre O'malley ( T.R Knight ) died in season 6 ): He tried to save a woman & got himself drag by the goddamn bus! The director didn't show the part of him being drag the bus or else i will find myself unknowningly crying in front of my laptop!

I am loving the characters in Grey's Anatomy! Though sometimes, some actors are quite bitch ): But it is just an act, a script (: I can't wait to watch more episodes! It is a way to kill time for me!

TODAY, THERE IS ROBINSONS SALES! ^^

I hope today, there will be a lot of customers to entertain! ^^ I work in the bedlinen department & there ain't a lot of customers! ): I will be extremely bored & just stand @ one corner, folding towels! ((: I am mad excited! I know I am weird!

Other than robinsons sales, today is new year's eve. Well, everyone will make new resolutions when this day comes. Yet, each year we managed to achieve nothing. We make wishes, new resolutions but I wonder how many people has achieve it. Each year, something new happen in life. I don't even want to know what awaits in 2011. By typing 2011 is indeed weird.

To me, 2011 will be totally different. I will be moving on to poly, doing the course that I love most. Till now, I have no idea what course I want to take. There are so many good courses that I want to choose & they are linked to designing. I like to design stuff. I like to create something new & different. That is me. But I am stuck right now, not knowing what I can do. I like designing but I am not sure if I am really good @ it.

It is a dilemma. Trap in the middle of nowhere, trying to choose what is best for me you know. My new year resolution is simple. I just hope that I know what is right for me when time comes.

Exhausted.

2010-12-26T20:42:00.002+08:00

I have been working almost every single day! Serving customers, doing cashier, facing some annoying people! I am doing this for one simple reason : I want to earn money & then, pamper myself! ^^

MUHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Happy Boxing Day!

2010-12-26T20:19:00.001+08:00

PEOPLE.
HAPPY
BOXING 
DAY!

Untitled.

2010-12-24T20:06:00.000+08:00