Stress.

I am pretty stressed up and I don't know why. This feeling sucks. Totally. My life is pretty mundane now. And I am busy trying to lose my weight! It is really stress and tiring. Like I am not sure if I can handle it but I am not going to give up! Not going to!

I want to shop soon! SHOPPING!

Starting a new blog.

Hello!

I decided to start a blog about my journey to my dieting and health issues but I will continue to blog here about my personal stuff or my personal rants! I started with my first post! Hope you guys will take your time to read cause it mean a lot for me to open up and face the fact.

Today is a busy day :( #Lifeofadesigner.

Take the time.


Dream to believe.

I deserve to go away. I don't deserve my parents. I am a disappointment.

World.


The world that is filled with lies, fantasy and love.

3rd week and I feel like I am still in the first week of school. I am looking for part-time job. It is very hard to avoid F&B as it gives me flexible timing but no way I am going back there. I want to do something more. Maybe learn design through working. Why not? I sent an email to The Wonderland. Hopefully, I can hear from them soon. I really need a job. A girl like me who shops, eat good food, needs money!

I am not going to ask from my parents. I am old enough to take care of myself and know what I want. I need to prove to them I am maturing or else, they will still think I am still immature. I am immature when comes to some things but there are some point when I am well-mannered. Why is living expense so high in Singapore? Damn.

Different.


" An apartment facing the Effie Tower, 
with a queen size bed covered with plain white sheets,
a table with a cup of hot chocolate and a typewriter.
A place to dream. "

I wanna go overseas during the September holiday. I wanna travel somewhere. I want, I really do. Hopefully, I can plan out well. 

Boils down.


Everything seemed to be going downhill. No one is at fault. It is just all in me. I miss Danang, Vietnam. I can't bear to say bye to those happy times. I just need to explore. At this moment, nothing seems right. No one's life is smooth-sailing. It is all in the mind. However, my mind isn't in the happy mood. I totally hate my lecturer. I hate my life in Singapore. I dislike coming back to reality.

Many things happened in Danang. Knowing my friend for 5 years, and one fine day, she just blow up at me. After that, I found out she has been keeping it all in her heart. I knew about it. But I just ignore it. But what happened in Danang, I can't just forget. It is like there is a stain in the friendship. If it delays any longer, it will get worse. Tell me, how do I make this right? She will never open up to me. Maybe I have been a bad friend. A bad friend who doesn't care about her feelings but mine. Yeah I am selfish bitch. I am flawed. Judge me.

I am so gloomy now. I didn't have enough sleep when I came back from Danang. I can't smile now. It seems to hard to. I can't be me now. The short-tempered me is back. And I hate that. I wanna get rid of it. I don't wanna return to that past. That past I had. It brings back bad memories. Super.

Simple Things.

IDGAF

Back to reality. No more village trips from DTU. No more shopping at BigC. No more air con in my room. No more fun. Well, this kinda of sucks. I am missing Danang's Beach. I miss the villagers. The village's food are great. I miss sitting at the edge of the river bank, listening to music and sketching. Those small moments.

Now, school start. Everything returns back to where they belong. I wish I can have a longer getaway. Or maybe a forever getaway. If only.

Hope.

After a while, you start to look around to really see what is going on with your life.
Life is bullshit.
Cheaters, Liars, Backstabbers.
I am flawed. 
Keep chasing for perfections.
In the end, who fall down and cry? Me.
Danang is really beautiful. I really wanna shut my eyes and forget everything.

Happy Birthday.

Turning 18 on this special day.
Well, 18 seems like I am getting old.
God, I ain't greedy for anything.
I just want me to be happy.

Away.

I wish I knew what I was doing.
I wish I know there is a place where I can fit in.
I wish.

I am in Vietnam, Danang. I am relaxing in a way right now. Groupmates doing work!  (Y) I am here blogging. Danang is really beautiful. Surprised that they have night life here. You can see clubs and restaurant filled with customers at late night ard 9. People like to gather and chat. Honking at one another seems normal. Kids smile innocently. It is like there is a whole new world here.The villagers are friendly. I really enjoyed talking to them even though there is a language barrier. The food here are really good and it taste yummy!

I am beginning to get use to the place here. I really love it here. I really do. It is so different in Singapore. Singapore is always fast-pace. Here, it is filled with scooters. But the thing is they drive with their eyes open, not relying on the traffic lights. Unlike Singapore. It is so much better. The wifi here is awesome (Y)