WHERE HAVE I BEEN ALL MY LIFE?

This blog is dead. Real dead. All well, there is no readers anyways and I shall just blabber my way through.

It is 2.53 am. My body clock is screwed by all these design works. Damn. It stinks. This holiday, I am going to work hard, draw hard and party hard! I have to lose all the weight I need to lose. No more stupid excuses. Well, I managed to lose quite alot of weight and I am proud of it BUT I have to lose more. I want to hit the 60 & below target. I know I know, it is not about the scale but somehow, it does play an important role. I may be 63 kg but I feel much more heavier. I want to be toned up and ready to kick-ass in hot dresses. Yes, I want to be look good, feel good and be proud of who I am.

Sometimes, it just stinks when people shoot you and said that you are never good enough. Bloody hell. It is a way of motivation for me. I hate it when people say I am never good in this or that. I will prove them wrong. This holiday will be a change. I am going to groom myself with skills of sewing. I need that BAD. Life is always about learning, it is never too late. I am never good at some thing, I am just an ordinary girl who is trying to do something with her life. My life is hell boring. Though I have an awesome boyfriend by my side, my life is just plain boring and I doubt it will be anymore exciting. However, I am happy with what I have. I am glad that I have my family, my boyfriend and my awesome mates.

Guess what? I have been praying a lot lately. I guess my dad's book for my 17th birthday works well. Think positive. Well, at least I am trying to make a change to myself.

Horizon


The water is calm.
The sky is fading in shades of pink.
The moon shining brightly in the sky.
I closed my eyes and hear the waves hitting against the shore,
the wind blowing against my hair.
I feel complete. 


Unknown


Everything is changing and I don't know why.

The end of Year 2.


At the start, everything was clear and life was shining brightly. 
That point of time was the happiest  moment of my life. 
Soon, as time passes,
life isn't that great after all.
People are different. I don't know if it was bad or good.
But I never liked it.
Soon, people drift apart from one another.
Living in their own world.
People are like animals, hunting to keep themselves alive.
We hunt cause it is in our nature.
We fight cause we have to.
We want to win cause we need to.
Soon, life isn't the clear blue sky with the sun shining brightly,
but a grey dark sky with thunder storms and lightning. 


iloveyou


3 words : I love you

Those 3 words, it melts my heart.

Summer.

Embrace the warmth of the Sun,
Embrace the world.


Eyes are the windows to our soul.

New Year


Make a change in me.

Another year passed by so quickly, another year arrives. Let's hope for the best in 2013. I really hope that there will be more peace and lesser psycho people killing innocent people. I just want to live the best I can and treasure every moment I have. Life is too short to care about things that hurt us. I want to be happy and treasure whatever I have.