Dread.

RANT POST.

O's result is coming out on Monday ( 10 jan ). I don't know what I am feeling right now. Scared? Worried? Nervous? It is a mixture of feelings that combine to one feeling : F.E.A.R! It is worse than taking O's. I realized that waiting for O's result is the scary part. I just want to score well. I want to make my parents proud. I did my part ): I hope it is good enough to get me through to the next round.

Every single night, I couldn't sleep well. My mind is occupied with O's O's O's! It is like O's is taking over my body. It really suck. It suck to the max. What if I get like 26 points like KNS like that. Or maybe like 30 points, I will not be able to survive under my father's hand. It is like anything is possible. It is just nerve-racking. I don't know what to do/think. I can just choose the courses I want which is mostly design's courses.

OH LORD, SAVE ME.