Love Again.

Give it time.
Give it time.

 Cause it ain't no race.
You'll be fine.

 You & Me stand for something. 

Cause I don't want to do this again.

 Another day another day.
See your face.

A Two Sided Love

He has 2 different sides. One with his friends, One with his lover. He isn't weird or crazy. He just acted differently towards 2 different types of people in his life. He is a good friend, caring friend and he will joke with you. Towards his lover, he treats her the same but better; he gets more comfortable and honest.

As his honesty reveals, it wasn't a bad thing but he never knew how it felt for his lover. The verbal abuse of words scarred her heart. This is a human error. We tend to see the negative more than the positive. The reason being because negative brings a bigger impact in one's memory. He protects her, makes her happy, be there for her but soon, things changed.

Honesty came in. Words became arrows stabbed into the heart. In the end, his lover pulled those arrows out and patched the wounds by herself. He never wanted to hurt her but he never knew what it felt like. His lover gave him whatever she can. She gave her all. 

Did he appreciate it? 

His lover just wish for a thank you. A thank you that will never come because she knows he will never do that for her.

But why did she stay?

Because she can't live without him.

It's okay, It's love

It's okay if he stops loving you. It's okay if he fell for another woman. It's okay if he was never planned to be yours forever. It's okay if you were never the one for him.  It's okay to let him go, to let him find someone better. It's okay to keep holding on to him. It's okay if love hurts. It's okay because you are not alone. It's okay, It's love.

I will comfort you and be there for you whenever I can.

Maybe one day, I will wake up from this dream. Maybe this dream will always be a dream. For now, goodnight.

I never knew the reason why.

I don't know why I feel that way. I don't know why I have expectations from someone. I am stupid to think that the things I do for you, maybe one day you will do that for me too. I guess I just love surprises. No wonder they say working life is pretty shitty if you don't do things you love.

Everyday, I give him a call telling him how my work was. He listens but I know he is too busy with his camp stuff and I am grateful that he spares me that 10 minutes. Talking to him makes the day whole lot better but getting to see him will be a blessing. To be able to see someone you love is such a great feeling. It can't be explained.

I don't know why I would predict the future of what you will do for me. It is pretty stupid of me to think that way. I guess it is stupid habit of mine. I always love surprises when I was young. Even when I am at 21, I still love birthdays. I still love presents. I still love gift wrapped box items. Cliche of me but I just love them. It makes a person's day.

That is why I give him surprises because it makes a person feel good. And when he feels good, I feel happy because getting to make someone you love happy is one good feeling. I remembered how it felt. I guess once is enough.

He said leave him if I am not happy. He said not just once but twice. Does it mean he wants me to? Too tired to think of anything. Got to get my Starbucks/Coffeebean/Whichever Coffee Shop I can see tomorrow.