I never knew the reason why.

I don't know why I feel that way. I don't know why I have expectations from someone. I am stupid to think that the things I do for you, maybe one day you will do that for me too. I guess I just love surprises. No wonder they say working life is pretty shitty if you don't do things you love.

Everyday, I give him a call telling him how my work was. He listens but I know he is too busy with his camp stuff and I am grateful that he spares me that 10 minutes. Talking to him makes the day whole lot better but getting to see him will be a blessing. To be able to see someone you love is such a great feeling. It can't be explained.

I don't know why I would predict the future of what you will do for me. It is pretty stupid of me to think that way. I guess it is stupid habit of mine. I always love surprises when I was young. Even when I am at 21, I still love birthdays. I still love presents. I still love gift wrapped box items. Cliche of me but I just love them. It makes a person's day.

That is why I give him surprises because it makes a person feel good. And when he feels good, I feel happy because getting to make someone you love happy is one good feeling. I remembered how it felt. I guess once is enough.

He said leave him if I am not happy. He said not just once but twice. Does it mean he wants me to? Too tired to think of anything. Got to get my Starbucks/Coffeebean/Whichever Coffee Shop I can see tomorrow.