Have you ever wonder.

Have you ever wonder why love always fall apart? It can always be one's mistake but humans are just pushing blame to one another. What if one day we stopped pushing blame and start trusting and loving the other party, will the love be different?

It is never about the look or about how he treats you. It was about how he made you feel about yourself. Well, when I met Bryan, he was everything I wanted. I don't want a nonchalant relationship. I want it to be filled with joy and laughter. There will be bad times but I am willing to go through with it. Bryan has this magic about him. He can be real crude sometimes but he will do whatever it takes to protect someone. He is a safe house to me. I never told him that. I will never had a chance to.

I feel like whenever a relationship fails, it falls on me. I am always blaming myself for whatever happened. Is it wrong? I always questioned myself. Am I such a bad girlfriend? I will never be someone's perfection. Love is a gamble. I gamble this love. I have to deal with the heart ache.

I think this is the end. End of Love. I thought I found it. In the end, I lost it. Maybe love is not my thing. Maybe love is just a damn stupid word that someone created. Maybe love is not real anymore.