What makes you sane?

A Day in Bed.

I wish I have a room like that. I have been crazy about interior designs. Not that I want to be a designer or anything, I just love the look of the house. How it is cleverly designed. I wish to live in this type of apartment. Will it ever come true?

Well, it is been quite a tough few months for me. Boyfriend scolding me mainly on what I do. Brother complaining to me how his life is falling apart. Older Colleague telling me on her life experiences or anything in particular. What really hit me hard the most was when my boyfriend told me what have I done for him?

It just hits me right in my face. Like a slap. What have I done for him? Maybe to him, I didn't do anything for him. But to me, I gave him my everything. I stop hanging out with my guy friends, I try to not meet my friends/family when he is out of camp, I try to do whatever I can for him. Am I trying not hard enough? Am I that bad as a girlfriend? Failing in many ways.

I can't see the future anymore.